Today I saw the America you wanted to live in
You wrote for the school magazine in Grade One that you want to go to America as snow falls there and you would like to do ice skating. I was worried that it rarely snows in memphis so you will be disappointed. When I woke up this morning I saw the grass covered with the white blanket, last night it snowed. Immediately I wanted you to be here and enjoy it. Today we didn’t opened the front door till afternoon. I am sure if you were there it would have been opened for at least 10 times since morning.
You never saw snow but rain always made you crazy. Cycling, skating, going out in the car in rain; all was exciting for you but most of all was the joy of feeling the raindrops. The expression of joy on your face in rain was unmatchable. Umbrella was a toy for you and the best time to play with it was in rain. In rain your choice was to walk and cycle on the road in the rain water rather than finding a dry patch. I remember one day it was raining and you and Mustafa were late in coming back from school. I went to the bus stop finding Mustafa walking alone. I asked about you and he mentioned you sharing your umbrella with a little girl. You made sure her getting in her house without being wet and then looked around for us. I will not use my umbrella now but yours in rain and will feel that you are with me, trying to save me from being wet.
Are you the same caring soul Ali Farzan in Heaven. How can I know, I am here to see white sheet of snow without you. God gives joy in life but equals it by grief. You filled my heart with joy, happiness and completeness, now its all empty.