Amma loves you Ali Farzan

Its thunderstorm-you never saw it

You never saw thunderstorm, we are having one now. The wind is blowing fast, few brown leaves on the backyard tree are moving to notify their presence. The sky has become all full of clouds. Its a thunderstorm-something you never saw. The thought came to my mind this afternoon that so many new things will happen in my life and you won’t be there. I was shocked to realize that. I don’t want anything to come to me while you are not around. I cant think of experiencing new things without your company. I saw that change in our living room this morning due to the new decor. You are not here to tell me if it looks good. You are not here to tell me if I made the right choice. You remember I was used to ask about your choice while shopping. I must admit that I was not following your choice all the time. But in case of refusal I tried to justify my action. Now I don’t need to think of such arguments. It does not make me happy Ali Farzan.

Then I thought you are also experiencing so many new things and I am not with you. Do I want you to be sad because of my absence or to enjoy every moment. I certainly wish and pray for the latter. So I must learn to experience things without you and also without the sorrow. I promise I will try to do my best while working on anything as I will do it only for you. You were, are and will remain the focus and the purpose. Let me observe the thunderstorm so I can tell you how it looks when we meet in Heaven.

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6 responses

  1. Ali Farzan loves you so much that he is giving you strength ,so that you can live your life and continue those goals he wanted to achieve . love you

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    February 20, 2014 at 11:59 pm

    • He always gave me strenght Pakeeza, and am looking forward to find more from him. So his job is not finished and he should know it all the time

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      February 21, 2014 at 3:01 am

  2. ISBAH OUR. PRIDE
    Abid says that Isbah is our pride.He is true You are a Role model for all our children .Today everyone praises our family for education it is all because of you.You set an example for Kaku Yasir Amna Uzair and Amar to work hard and be special in their fields.You were supportive for Uzair and Amer and always advised them to choose right fields and Universities.we are grateful to you Isbah
    Likewise Ali was a Role Model for his cousins .You took tough decision of admitting in a far away school .Inspire of so many difficulties you stood by your decision .Isbah you were right .Ali was highly groomed in that school .He was confident and successful in every field both culturally and socially.He was well behaved.
    Amna and Yasir followed you and admitted children in the same school
    So you and Ali Farzan are the leaders and we are the followers
    Isbah I praise your strength and bravery.I know you will complete your mission and return home successfully.
    God will bless you with one more Ali Farzan .This is my belief
    Keep it up Is bah .God will help you
    Love for Ali Farzan

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    February 21, 2014 at 1:13 pm

    • Giving you grief would have been my last choice. God made me an agent to bring sorrow to the family. I dont know why. I want to give you and Abbo only happiness. I am helpless.

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      February 22, 2014 at 1:41 am

  3. Isbah we are all helpless.God Almighty had written the destiny like this He will INS Allah heal up our wounds .we all tried our best to make Ali Farzan a best humanbieng .you were the best mother. Infact Ali Farzan had himself all the qualities of a best child we didn’t have to work hard .he full filled all our demands and wishes .we are unlucky to loose him All the process was unnatural and sudden so we are unable to accept it

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    February 22, 2014 at 2:28 am

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