Its thunderstorm-you never saw it

You never saw thunderstorm, we are having one now. The wind is blowing fast, few brown leaves on the backyard tree are moving to notify their presence. The sky has become all full of clouds. Its a thunderstorm-something you never saw. The thought came to my mind this afternoon that so many new things will happen in my life and you won’t be there. I was shocked to realize that. I don’t want anything to come to me while you are not around. I cant think of experiencing new things without your company. I saw that change in our living room this morning due to the new decor. You are not here to tell me if it looks good. You are not here to tell me if I made the right choice. You remember I was used to ask about your choice while shopping. I must admit that I was not following your choice all the time. But in case of refusal I tried to justify my action. Now I don’t need to think of such arguments. It does not make me happy Ali Farzan.

Then I thought you are also experiencing so many new things and I am not with you. Do I want you to be sad because of my absence or to enjoy every moment. I certainly wish and pray for the latter. So I must learn to experience things without you and also without the sorrow. I promise I will try to do my best while working on anything as I will do it only for you. You were, are and will remain the focus and the purpose. Let me observe the thunderstorm so I can tell you how it looks when we meet in Heaven.