Enjoy the adventures
When I think of writing to you, and I think that so many times a day, so many ideas come to mind. When I open this page I become blank. I just look at the heading picture and want to keep looking at you. Its spring holidays. All your friends play, I hear their voices and shouts. Do you hear them, do you regret leaving them. You must be busy also. I cant imagine the kind of adventures you enjoy. I am sure they must be awesome. I don’t have any excitements here. Its very boring without you, or actually I am a boring person, all my liveliness was because of you my son. I laugh with people but later laugh at the emptiness I feel while laughing with them. You were my life, my happiness. Ali Farzan are you happy. How can I find that out. I never want to pose questions to you. I know responding to me is not in your hands. I don’t want you to desire for something you cannot do. Remember you told me about your friend going to Caribbean Islands in 2013. You said you want to go there for holidays. I told you that you are more lucky as you are going to America. I kept your wish in my mind and promised myself to take you there whenever possible. But I didn’t share that promise with you. I did not want you to wish for something which you cannot get instantly. I want the same. I don’t want you to wish for something Allah Mian does not allow you to do. I want you to enjoy, laugh and shout in Heaven as your friends do here. Amma loves you Ali Farzan.